Lately, things haven’t been going my way. I’ve experienced a lot of pain and suffering and I ain’t afraid to admit that. Luckily for me, I am a work in progress. I got my heart broken into a million pieces and that left me unsure of myself. If you know me, you know I love HARD! Im selfless, I always want the best for others and in return I lost myself in this relationship and I failed to take care of me. I had to take sometime and really reflect on the role I played in this relationship. In my opinion, I did what I thought was best for the relationship but somehow it still didn’t work. I’m not perfect and I am flawed like the next person but my heart was in the right place. I learned a hard lesson that I’ll never forget though and that is even if I love a person, I still have love me more. That’s where I went wrong. I loved him more than I loved myself and when the relationship ended it felt like a piece of myself was ripped away. At the end of the day, the only person I have is myself, everyone else can easily walk out of my life, but I still have to deal with me. From this point on, I will dedicate myself to loving me properly. Don’t get me wrong, it is nice to have a companion around, but when it is all said and done, it is necessary to pour that same love and affection that you would pour into a relationship, into yourself. I am definitely learning this. I am worthy even if you can’t see it! Everyone won’t see your value and that is a hard pill to swallow for me personally, however, it is the reality of things. I am grateful that I was able to see my errors and I am working towards being a better me and showing myself more love. It’s nothing wrong with loving someone and being there for others, however, if you don’t take care of yourself, you won’t have the necessary things needed to help others. I will always have a big heart, it is the way God created me but I am learning to be selfish with my time and who I spend it with. God is in total control of my life. Well, Im signing off, until next time xoxo.
She’s my favorite girl; she’s all I got.